So first off, while me and Bo were together the bank balance was over -700. -733.22 to be exact. I asked May 17th and the 22nd not to get direct deposit because our bank account was overdrawn. So, my manager sent an email and asked twice for me not to get it. Ever since then, I have been getting paper checks, so I thought to myself, well obviously they got the email because its almost August and its still not direct deposit. Good!
Well, I’m just not starting to learn to manage money better and I got paid on Friday. I opened up my check and it was almost 6. I was like, “Hell, yeah.” …. COME TO FIND OUT. They DID direct deposit it into my bank account which closed on the 11th or 13th of this month, and since it had already processed… not I HAVE NO FUCKING MONEY.
WHAT THE FUCK!?! Now, I have no food, no money, no gas. + me and Manda have been fighting some. I’m so stressed out, I swear I could kill someone!
Now, every day at work, when I see people with 834.44 on their foodstamp card and they buy like 8 of the 20oz redbulls, I get so fucking pissed off, I could scream.
All, I want to do is get ahead, and I cant seem to fucking do that.
Oh, and on top of all that, I think my dog is pregnant.
*raises hands up and screams at the top of her lungs.”
End of rant. I feel somewhat better.
This flower reminds me of what a beautiful, smart, caring, wonderful girlfriend I have. I didn’t even know if she liked these kinds of flowers before but I decided to make her a bouquet of flowers one day with this kind of flower. I took them to her work and left them by her truck, before we started dating. It makes me smile whenever I think about it, because I think about how I have been done in the past, but even though, I’ve been done shitty, I feel like she will never really hurt me. I want her to know that I know that she will always be there for me, and that I am NEVER going to do anything that would damper our relationship. She is seriously the most beautiful person that I have EVER laid my eyes on inside and out. She is the first girl that I have ever wanted to be with. She is my first girlfriend. She is my first real lover. She is all that I have ever wanted in somebody and now I have her! (: She is bossy, sometimes, but that attracts me to her! Sometimes, she is mean to be but I know that she wants the best for me, and that she is just watching out for me. She’s my little mind reader <3 she knows what I am thinking at all moments of the day, and sometimes I feel like she knows my next move. We got so close in such a short period of time, but deep down I know its all going to be worth it because I really love her. I trust her. I’m feeling very vulnerable at the moment. But, I know that I am safe with her. She is my woman, and I know that she will take good care of me. (: I love you, Amanda Gail Holland. + dont ever doubt that I do.
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